Where's the wagon?

Ok, so I've fallen so far off the healthy wagon that I can barely make out it's tracks in the dirt.
ugh.

And here I am in the middle of what the cycle always brings when I don't do what I need to for my health.  I'm sick.  In the middle of winter, I have this fracking head cold and sinus BS that just won't go away.  I know why, I know why. 
Let's recap.
Back drinking cokes.
Picking up fast food while on the go.
Not drinking Any water.
Not exercising.
Not sleeping well.
Not being 'every day' consistent with my spiritual practice (although at least this one is fairly close to being on track)

So no, I'm not a bit surprised that I am run down, tired and sick.  It doesn't take a Rocket Scientist to figure that one out.

So what do I do to motivate myself back on track in the dead of winter when all I want to do is rest as long as I can, eat dense "comfort" foods and crave cokes?

I think that a part of my problem here is SAD.  Although the sun has been out a bit in the last few days, its just not enough.  In the past, I have tried to go to a tanning bed for 5 minutes once a week and that really helped to keep me feeling healthy and energetic (and not depressed).  This winter, I have not done that even once.  I may be on to something here.

Ok, so what's the plan....

1.  Go to the tanning bed, STAT!
2.  Do some meal planning for the week and then the appropriate grocery shopping.
3.  Finally (after 2 months) carve out my new workout area for real - not the half-assed version that I tried before.
4.  Start tracking all my food, drinks and exercise on livestrong.com

I know I will get back in the groove... I just want to get there sooner rather than later.  Here's to hoping that happens! 

Hello Emergence!  It's Bobbi calling!

living my bliss

This subject has been on my mind a lot lately.  What is it that calls to me?  What does my bliss look like?

In my meditative work, I have come to know that I will need to remain in the non-spiritual working world for some time to come.  There are things I am meant to do in this lifetime and those things require a certain amount of funding which apparently - my elusive 'bliss' vocation can not support.  so..... basically, I need to 'get over it' and just work (current work situation) to make the money to support my spiritual work.  The End.

I will admit to a certain amount of envy for those who integrate their spiritual lives with their working vocation.  How wonderful that must be to be supported fully (materially, spiritually, emotionally, etc) by a single vocation.  I've racked my brain to find what that vocation would be for me.  It's just not there.  I'm looking in the wrong universe, I think.

The messages I received are that I must continue working in our business for some time to come in order to secure our financial future.  This will, in turn, allow me to pursue the things that make my heart sing...  ie: living my bliss.

Back to start - what exactly would my bliss be?  Now that the demands of it supporting me financially have been removed...what has opened up here?

I am sure that these things will be revealed as the Goddess sees fit.  I trust that Awen is waiting around one of the upcoming corners.

For now, I am So happy to say that we are moving back into working with our bird dogs.  This is truly something that I love...training, field trialing and just watching a bird dog work.  They are amazing creatures and outstanding athletes - particularly English Pointers...our breed of choice. 

Could this be my bliss - Running our kennel?  Maybe.  Time will tell.  But for now, I am enjoying it regardless.  :-)

Post holidays

Well, I totally wussed it up over the holidays.  After spending 2 weeks moving rooms around, painting, cleaning, etc.  My ass was whooped.  With Steffen coming home and all of the chaos that has followed that, my workout plan has been stuffed in a closet.

The good news is that I have maintained my weight loss from before.  The bad news is that I am pretty sure that some of the muscle tone I had picked up has melted back into fat again.  Ugh.  C'est la vie.

On the upside, I have a plan.  I haven't enacted said plan as of yet, but the plan is there nonetheless.  I have carved out a new workout space in my now-shared abode.  I have also started paying closer attention to my food/drink choices.  It's a process, I know.

So, here I go.  LOL